Just I'd written a longer entry, but I've noticed that it hasn't got stored at all.

So here an edited version, because I'm quite dog-tired, although it's only ten o'clock.

In addition, it hasn't happened a lot up to now.

I've holidays and dancing-lessons every day.

Two very good friends of mine are on vacation and accordingly I am bored.

Alone partying, does also not gives fun.

Tomorrow I will see Jake, but I'm really not amused.

Between us it really does not run well.

I also became a bit melancholy and depressive.

Anyhow this comes when I am not with friends.

Indeed, I've thought a few hours ago of a really good time with Jake, but just it goes only really badly.

I hope tomorrow becomes tolerable.

Probably I'll be able to write only in the end of this week again. Sorry.

Thinks of me.

Love, ashley ♥

Hello dear,

I can probably soonest write a longer task on wednesday. O: 

But please pursues my blog anyway and also comment diligently.

It helps me very much, I'm already a bit better.

And life's working a bit easier.

Altough I think it'll change soon, because I've holidays and a lots of good friends of mine I won't see for a long time, but I'll see Jake. c:

busy.

So I complement the short entries later.

Hope you understand it.

Love, ashley ♥

Today was a quite average day, nearly a good. Yeah, it was a good day if you compare it to the others.

Indeed, I had a weird amusing talk with Jake, but I must simply forget this thing.

I've also got to know someone else, a very nice guy. VERY charming c:

He lives, however, quite far away.

I'm really dog-tired this day, so that's all for the moment, but I'll complete it afterwards.

Good night and sleep well.

Love, ashley ♥

I'm just with a good friend of mine.

That makes me satisfied and happy for a while.

But the guy [I told, easily will call him Jake] isn't online, and so I wonder where he is.

May I write him a short message.

I've also promised to write 'bout a good female friend. So let's start... c:

She split up with her boyfriend a week ago. They were a couple for more than two years.

Now she has a new lover.

She seems to be happy, but there was a time, she called me, she was briefly before comitting suicide.

She thought of her ex and her feelings were still very strong, so I've a critical view of her new relationship, but I've not told it her yet because I wouldn't like to injure her in her being in love.

I only hope that it's really something serious and nothing only to forget.

I also hope it for her boyfriend because he really loves her.

In addition, she announces herself much more less since they got together, although I was there for her, when she cried, but I probably must learn to handle it, because she means a lot to me. She is awfully important to me in spite of all.

So, now I still have to deal something, so the Fashion-Guide must also fall out, unfortunately o: Instead next spot more :)

We'll read.

Love, ashley ♥

Today I feel a bit better.

Maybe because I've called up a good friend of mine yesterday, but I already do not really know why it just not goes well to me in general. D:

Maybe it's caused by many small things coming together.

I've not seen my best friend for long time, the weather is bad and I have also done no sport for long.

But, at least, my mood improves slightly. That's the only hope.

Otherwise I will not write a lot because it hasn't happened a lot.

Today I will also do nothing more.

I've written briefly with the guy I've already written about, but anyhow the communication there also doesn't run in such a way.

I will simply try to form this day as pleasant as possible and if you have an advice - tell me! I'll be pleased.

And to make this 'Blog' still a little bit more interesting I've decided to insert a personal 'Fashion Guide'. Fashion-tricks of me for you. ;) 

I will insert three Hot's or Not's with every entry. Hope you like it and be interested.

Next time I'll tell you another story 'bout a second good female friend of mine.

At the moment I do not know what I should think about her behaviour and this weights my mood also a little bit.

So up to the next lecture.

Love, ashley ♥

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✩Fashion-Guide for THE Fashionista✩

Must-Have's

1. white t-shirt, very combinable

2. violett eyeshadow, lends glamour

3. cultivated finger nails, a hygienic must

Today I have received distance to yesterday's day.

I'm still kind of sad, but I've shot out the guy from my thoughts.

I don't think that he's the reason for my sad mood, yet.

At least for these pair of hours.

It's more like a deep dissatisfaction for which I've not already found the reason.

Maybe also the long absence of good friends makes me so sentimental.

Because of a training period I cannot see them each day and talk 'bout my problems.

The property in the training period is that today I've discovered a small glimmer of hope.

It was a saying on the wall in a darkroom.

"Negative thoughts disturb the way to [...] success."

He contains a piece of big truth.

I've decided to write it down and stick it to my cover.

As a glimmer of hope.

Love, ashley ♥

Today my mood has reached a low.

The after-effects from yesterday night give a hard time to me.

I was at a farewell party of a friend of mine.

It was damn shitty. People were much younger than me, they were acting like little children first time getting drunk and music was really bad.

I sat next to a guy I know for a long time.

Even if I do not want, he makes my mood going up and down.

It's difficult to describe the feelings I've for him. If generally any exist.

Yesterday we did not talk.

I just listened the conversations and the words he said and thought "What a nerd."

He behaved very childish, but he thought he was really cool, and that's making him so unerotic in a special kind of way.

Nevertheless I dreamed of him.

He kissed me and I felt pretty good, til I woke up and my feelings shaked.

Really don't know what to do, and above all, how I'll feel tomorrow.

I'm scared in a specific way. Fear of old feelings may come back and fill my head with thoughts, I don't want to think. O:

Everything seems so complicated, but maybe I'm the person, who makes it such a way.

That's why I want to share my feelings with others.

Today I will simply try to get over the day as good as possible.

And you'll be able to read in a few days, what has happened next.

Please, please, please give me an advice, what to do.

And be pleased.

Love, ashley ♥