Ok Im more relaxed today and I have though some things.

First of all I wanna thank YOU..... yes YOU who take time to read this blog

and You who write me some comments... Thank You

I really apreciate that..

Second, I dont feel sad anymore xD I know I'm bless for all I have .. and I thank God for this, its just that sometimes I feel lonely (but I think we all feel lonely sometimes) The problem is that I'm very sensitive  but I'm alright now.

Third, I dont know what to write here hahaha. Ok Third, I will write about the theatre!

Well, as I said i invited a lot of people and nobody answer me. Two hours later Oct wrote me an SMS saying this:

 "I was in the cinema comrade. Huy you are very misterious (i didnt tell him where I invited him XD ) haha But I will failt you, I will go out tomorro morning with my mother. But I see you in monday. Kiss"

What is that??????? Today as usually he arrived late and he didnt even look at me, we didnt talk to each other today.

-hmm, about the other friends that I called, 2 at night called me home but I didnt asnwer hahahahaha and other told me through ICQ that she was sick

Anyway I went to the teathre with my friend Ram! and it was good .....

PS. if u wanna talk to me add me in icq :D

see you, kisses

I forgot it!!! I decided I love language and writting!! :-O

So that will be my new passion languages and writting!!!!!

Thanks xD

 usually asked myself - what's wrong in me that im usually lonely?

I feel so stupid and sad! I sent a SMS to invite Oct and he didnt reply, so I called him and he put his phone in a Busy mode...clearly he didnt want to talk to me.

Well, thanks OCt!! for opening my eyes and see how "cool" you are, I dont even care coz I have lost my interest of you time ago... I just though....

So the next step was to invite someone else, I though it was easy (my agenda is full of telephones) but how sad was to realize that most of the people I call friends are not that, they are just there for parties or drinks not for something else.

Come on! I invite them !!! I paid the ticket! they just need to go with me! but nobody replied my messages! or take my calls!!!!

I really need new friends!!! real ones! im tired of feeling sick :(

I'd be happy if at least i'd had true friends.... coz real love seems even further
I dont know , I think I should be used to be alone.... coz it seems thing aint gonna change!

So sad, but that makes me realize how stupid i am!

Im ashamed, again hahaha. Yesterday, me and my closest classmates went to a disco bar to celebrate that the classes are finished. It was all ok until I got drunk hahahahaha.

Well, being drunk is funny hahahaha! But suddenly I felt sad coz Im searching for my Real Love but I cant find it, being alone makes me sad and sick. :(

So, I was there drunk and feeling sad, so friends said to me: go to dance. So i was dancing when suddenly my friend Peke told me: ohh Sam look there is Em!!!

(Em the disco boy that i met months ago and that told me that he likes me soooo much and that im great and special but didnt want anything seriuos with me ¬¬ )

Anyway I met him sometimes in that bar, but this day I was drunk and I told him: I missed you  hahahahahaha XD so stupid

well, then I felt sad and cried :( and my friend Ka hugged me :( but i think everybody saw me and that makes me feel ashamed! first coz i was drunk and second coz i did something stupid as cried in a bar xD

Sooo next... my mother and my cousin were going to pick me at the bar, and i was drunk"" oh jesus!!!! so i asked to my friends and Em: do i look drunk? hahahaha  xD

I take a gum and go to my cousins car, coz we were going to a big mall to buy lots of things. Ok I bough some new clothes and some bags and thats make me happy (i wasnt so drunk after all) I think I looked sobber, or at least I acted sobber with my family.

It was a nice day, but Im still ashamed

Ok now, i have tickets for the theatre but i have no one to go with me! so my mom said, invite oct!!!! invite oct!!! I dont know what to do, i think i will but it will be embarassing coz my mother is comming , he will think that i wanna marry him hahahahaha

anyway i write tomorrow

beijos (kisses)

Today i drove to university xD and it was cool because I can drive but I cant park.

So i left the car in the street hahahahaha  not in the parking zone, anyway all was ok and i got back home safely :)

Im glad, about my stupid project, i think its improving

Today I had to talk to the class about it xD and everybody laughed at me :(

because I was very nervous xD but it was funny ... and its over now

I hate being shy, what can i do for not being shy????

I'm glad ... and how are you?
Soon holidays ..... :D

Im ashame to admit that I felt jealousy and envy of one of my friends.

This was because in class we are preparing a project about anything you want but relate with Social or Political issues. Our topic is very close, but she is doing a great jog and teacher congratulated her and my project is garbage xD

so I felt envy of her :( and I was a bit angry hahaha but now i realized this is coz I'm doing everything but not studying or doing my silly project.

so I went today to the library and read something, the library is a cool place, I cant concentrate at home so better I went there... and luckily I could meet my real love among book and we could kiss betwen books of Mars and Engels hahaha xD

Well, today I met with Oct. I was talking to Danny and Oct was going to the library and DAnny told me: go ahead, go for him xD so I went and we talk a bit among books and later we went to buy something to eat, but not me coz I wasnt hungry.

He asked me some smart questions, like do you know some books about this political issue? and I said: not really :( hahaha
I think he is very smart coz he studies Political Science xD

I dont know... i have to do this stupid project so I will be working all day long

see you soon

beijos (kisses)

PS. I wanna learn Chinese :D

Damn it seems i must put orden in my life. yesterday i was chatting and watching tv all day long after my classes, and I didnt do anything about my homework xD later i went to bed at 9pm coz I was tired (I wonder tired of what)

Well, today I woke up early (15 minutes before ) and I realized there's not enough time for do it, teacher will kick my ass at 11am :( and the worst is that its my fault.

Other thing, I must do a speech in English and in French :( and both are not my mother tongue! so I wonder how I will deal with it hahahahahaha :(

anyway, yesterday I was kinda sad or dunno, but it wasnt my day , i didnt follow my philosophy :$ but guess what?
I did a project and teacher told me that it was very good, i get a great mark and teacher gave me a book for being cool hahahahahahaha

wow, I wanted to quit in that subject and at the end i did it good :-O

That shows that things will be OK, coz thats the only way they can go

(of course if you work hard for them , not if u are a lazy person like me last days xD)

anyway, i will start working now

Good morning to everybody in da house xD 

and beijo (kiss)

Today I saw for first time through webcam one of my closest friends from icq. He lives very far away from me but it made me very happy to see him, but at the same time I was so sad coz he is far away.

Maybe we will never meet, or maybe we will.  I have been in his city before, but in that time I didnt know him.

I have some friend from ICQ that live in other countries and they are soo nice and i like them so much, but they are far. Maybe i should stop making friends this way coz it hurts me they are far from me :(

on the other hand, when i have met my foreign friends i have been very happy :)

I wish we were closer.....

but i know the world is not so big .....

One of my life dreams is to be a student abroad

In college I have had some foreign classmates from Germany and Canada for example, and one of my classmates went to Australia.

I would like to study and live abroad for a time L but to be honest I can barely deal with college in my country I cant imagine how I would deal with living abroad and study, maybe the language would be a problem xD

Also I’m shy and absent-minded but I think that experience would help me to grow up and be more confident of myself.

Well, maybe being in a exchange is not possible now, but I have planned to be abroad as Teacher assistant (just as one my best friends did). In this way it would be easier for me coz I wouldn’t have to study just to help the teacher hehehe.

Anyway, I really wanna be abroad for a time, to have a new experience, friends from all the world and learn new things about life and our world.

I love the world J and it’s people

Wow I cant believe soon it will be Christmas!!!!! I like Christimas time because is full of peace and gifts!

Also new year is near, I must start to think about the goals I wanna acomplish for the next year, ( it seems  I will be alone again :(

To be honest Xmas makes me sad, because I think it's time for people to be united and with their beloved ones but I'm a lonely girl :(

Anyway I will try not to be sad.

My mother said its a good idea to make a party in december, so I will think about it. I could invite Oct... hehehe

About him, well what can i say? I dont see any possibility, but maybe, or he is shy or silly!! or both hahahahaha.
he told me: so Sam, how many parties will you invite?  and I answered: too all the parties i  get invited.... (well, usually i dont have many parties xD )

Maybe I will asking out I m not sure xD or i will tell him hey Oct I like you and run away xD I have nothing to lose not even a friend coz we are not very close.
There is also the English teacher I like hehehe ( Im looking for love ) but he looks like a difficult guy hehehe

I dont know, its cold and my brain is frozen

where are you My Love? :(