I dont know why I always lose in love

I dont know why I'm never lucky enough

I dont know why I dreamt about him

I wanna drink until I die .... while I cry and suffer for his love

I talked to my friends about the weekend trip I wanna do to another city where is a fun fair, but it seems nobody can go... money, time, excuses, excuses..... I even invited Oct and he said: oh maybe coz there's a trip to other city too.

Me: whatever...fck you... I will never invite him again, he always refuses, he is gay hehehehe

I'm sad for that. Today was a boring day, thank God i got my ipod and cell phone to play games in the class hahahaaha. Today also I fell and my kness hurt me soooo much, they are all red and in big pain. Me and my friend walked near a park and it was full of couples... spring is here... love time ... but I'm alone as a dog  =(

I'm drinking a strawberry milkshake now =)