I was brought up in a fundamentalist Christian family and I hated it.
Although I was not a practising Christian, I considered it, for decades, to be the truth.
Or very close to it.

I was not a well behaved kid.
I hated school which I left aged 14 having taken no exams.
At age fifteen I was stealing four or five cars a week and taking them for joy rides.

In the next fifteen years I was all over the place.
I drank way to much and I took way too many drugs.

I was not a well behaved adult.
By 22 I had been hospitalised with overdoses six times.
I had been in court for various drunken offences at least twenty times and was arrested on non alcohol related offences (under a couple of aliases} well over one hundred times.

Between the ages of fifteen and twenty-one I lived, mainly, on the streets of London and in many squats. This hardened me up no end.

I can't even count the number of nights I spent in the cells at Bow Street, Vine Street and West End Central Police stations. I have also been arrested in Hounslow, Brentford, Egham, Stains, Hammersmith, Earls Court, Darlington, Brighton, Blackpool and some other places I just cant remember.

By the time I was sixteen I was dependent on drugs and alcohol. These addictions resulted in nine weeks hospital treatment and twenty two months residential rehabilitation in my mid thirties.

I have lived all over the UK.
In Ghana and in Florida.
I have had my own video production company and was co owner in a security company that specialised in fine art and antique fairs.

I have been a doorman in nightclubs and in a number of Soho strip clubs. I lost everything I had because of my addiction five times.


I have been married twice and am currently single.

I have taken part in orgies.
I have been beaten, stabbed and hospitalised on more than one occasion.
I have put other people in hospital on more than one occasion.
I have been in prison.
When I was fourteen I was raped by four men.
My father died while I was trying to resuscitate him.

Fortunately, I have not had a problem with drugs and alcohol for some 14 years now.

In my 'quest for the truth years' I was a Hindu monk for two years.



I tell you these things to show that I have experienced life from many sides. I have not led a sheltered, nor easy, life.
If I were to delve deeper into the things I have experienced you would probably not believe me.
However, time and not wanting to bore you forbid me from doing so.

I like to think that I am able to view things from many sides. I try hard not to look at any subject with preconceived ideas and conclusions.

I don't trust politics nor politicians.

And I am an atheist.


People, be happy.
A heck of a lot of people allow their thoughts to be controlled by their feelings.
But, remember, that is the wrong way round.
Your mind and thoughts should control the way you feel.
If you constantly feel fed up, change the way you think.
It does work.

And, people, always be who you are.
You are valid in your own right even if you can't see it right now.