I arrived at 7am to the place where they were going to take us the picture, I was by myself as usual. I met Silvie in the way. I wasn’t alone anymore. Later, we were wearing the gowns and caps and we were taking lots of photos. For my surprise I had many people to take a photo with, even more than my close classmates.

So, I actually got many pictures with many people. It seems I didn’t do it so bad these last four years, that was what I thought but lately I came back to reality. I had to go to the library (yes, on Saturday) to left one book that Kary asked me to give). I was alone again. Is not that bad, right? At least I had my iPod with me, let’s listen some cool songs.

I didn’t what to going my friends to PEk’s house. Drinking free in her house doesn’t sound like an interesting day for me. I had things to do. I went to the library to start my research about my Thesis. I got many information that I still haven’t read.

Where I want to arrive is that when the photo was being taken I realized there was some people who I have never seen before in my life!! And we have spent more than four years between the same buildings. Wow, it was a strange moment. Of course I’m not a friend of everybody, but at least I know most of the people by looks. I realized what a pity was that I never shared some words with them. We never had the opportunity to be friends or anything.

Maybe I wasn’t so social into them… but neither did they. Life is like a jungle, everybody make their moves to survive. We make some friends, our social circle and it seems we are ok with them… we don’t need somebody else. So, when somebody new comes it’s difficult for he to get into a circle coz circles have been already closed and it is not easy to be accepted.

Well, I accepted maybe I fucked my opportunity. First year of College was the main opportunity to start from zero. Usually nobody knows anybody so everybody is looking for make some friends. That’s the chance to get your friends and you know. They say your university friends will be your friends forever. I hope that is true.

I made some friends. I still remember the first girl I talked to in my first day of classes. She was Claudia, since that day we became friends. Something funny, is that Claudia didn’t go to the generation photo… hmm… strange.  I must accept I didn’t work enough hard to keep my friends close to me… I didn’t care .. I’m sorry. I think I didn’t value how much a friend can be in our lives. That’s over I don’t think I will be able to recover the friends of my first year in College but instead that I have new friends, Kary, Peks, Silvie. I value them but drinking and men are not everything in my life I’m deeper person.

I wish I had someone to share all the amazing things around me but maybe I should be happy to have many people with whom I can share a little bit of my amazing world. Wow, that’s a side I have never thought about.  Maybe I can’t share everything I like with somebody… but I can share a bit with everybody.

Wow, to find the good side of life is good. So, I wanna finish saying: it doesn’t matter where you are, you can always say HI to everybody and smile. If I had said HELLO and SMILED everybody I was entering to a new class, if the first days I would have said HELLO to more people… maybe I would had more friends now. And believe me, having friends is very important or at least have a good relation in the classroom coz you never know where you will need some help.  

Let’s think in our life and friends like one country and it’s business. A country cant not just have business with other country… diversification is necessary!!! Why to sell our product to just one country if we have all the world to make business with??? Well, that’s the same about life… why to only have some friends (or to be more specific “people with whom we can share our life” if we can have many many. OF course, not anyone is your friend, coz wow, it’s damn hard to find the meaning of a friend, but at least a person that you can get along with, that’s what I mean.

In my life, I try to use this diversification of markets (as it’s called in Economics) in a diversification of friends: I have friends from college, French class, ICQ, trips, etc.  So, in that way I can share a part of my life with all them. But being honest, I wish I had more friends… or a closer friend.

Am I a loner?  Perhaps.