Hello Sib. Since some months ago you have been flying in my mind and rocking my world but lately I realize I’m not in love with you anymore. Why? Because I realize I can’t love someone who doesn’t care about me. You don’t give a fuck about me. You don’t even appreciate me as a friend. So, I don’t wanna go and meet you. You have lost your magic for me … I don’t find you as hot as before. I’m free now.

Last weekend I met online a person who cheated on me and showed me a picture of himself that wasn’t he. Ohh, we shouldn’t trust so easily hehehe. Anyway, he is a very nice and kind person. It was just strange coz who knows how many people have fooled me hehehe.   Once Marija made a mistake a sent me the pic of another girl so I thought she was other girl and later she told me she wasn’t her LOL so strange…

About my holidays I have made up my mind and I won’t go abroad. Perhaps I will make a small trip and prepare a trip for spring when is not cold and is not hot. I want holidays so bad to have free time to think and find myself. I need some meditation, some time to be with myself. I’d like to go to a spiritual retreat  just to meditate and not talk at all. Talking only to myself.

Last Monday I went to my seminary class and it was very good. I must change my attitude. A positive attitude overcomes any obstacle. So, I will try to get good grades these last months. On December I will have time to meditate and decide what I’ll do for the rest of my live.

But, I must start to enjoy life now. We can say “when I do this … I will be happy” That is rubbish. We must be happy now … today.

Lately, I haven’t worked out… I don’t have my laptop with me that drives me crazy … I need it. I started to be lazy again. I can’t coz I must shape up even if I don’t go to Brazil lol.

I’m sleepy. Ohhh. They say 10pm is a great hour to go to bed but honestly I can’t sleep at that time. I always have so many things to do that I can’t jump to bed so early. I need more organization but really I don’t know how. I like sleeping so much.