Recent days I felt confused and worried, and I couldn't calm my heart when I ate, slept, and worked. I have much things to worry, most of them are not my problems, but now it becomes mine, cos I find only me can deal these things, even my old brother can't do them... “If my grandpa is still alive, and has such kind of problems, what he will do?” I think about the answer of this question, cos he is a great man who has talent and smart brain to conduct his company, but after he closed it and died, look what he leave to his daughters? I really don't know what he mind...it's about time for me to take responsibility and burden things I never burdened, everyone around me told me, “you should care about yourself more”, yeah, I know, but I can't just watch problems come and don't do anything, my heart beats me and my brain pushes me to face them, and I can't stop them do it to me...

After my grandpa died, I got nothing but an old black jacket, he is a great man, but I am not, guess what I got another thing from him? Lonely, both of us are lonely guys, he has many daughters, but he didn't trust them, and I don't be trust by the people know me...so funny, this is a little bit common of us...

I can't just talk my problems to the people who are around me, even I want, some of them may not listen to me...even they may listen, I can't let them worry about me.

I am the one who should be lonely.